Every Womans' Wish!

I'm happy for my lady friends who are married and have children and even those who just have children. What wonderful experiences!

But, I confess that it makes me sad to see the friendships that I have with these ladies fade. Some of the ladies I still talk to. They call me every now and then, but it is not like it was before.
I'm not a big fan of Sex and the City, but I always wanted to have a close circle of friends just like that, unfortunately I'm great at making friends. I'm just not that good at keeping them, no matter how hard I try.

I always thought it had something to do with me but then I realized that it was more simple. The paths that we took changed.
Before they had their children we were always together. We talked on the phone every single day. Every date story they heard. Every broken heart they helped me fix. But now some are wives and mothers and it makes me wonder... what am I doing with my life?
Not everyone that gets married or has children finds passion in being a wife and or mother. But, they did. And they embraced it so much that they put our friendship on the backburner.

I don't have any resentment toward them for not choosing our friendship over their other roles in life. I miss them, sure. I hope they are ok. I think about them often. But if they are happy with their lives then I'm glad they found their joy.

I suppose,

I wonder if deep down it is every womans' wish to have a family of her own... or is that question from a part of heart that is still hoping that some of the traditional gender roles were still valued?