Men, Just Gotta Love Em'

I use to think the common thought of "men just have commitment issues" but I realized that it can be a variety of things and that all of those things can make up the common excuse.
But the reality is, that some of the guys I dated just didn't plain ol' like my ass. They liked things about me. They may have liked my smile or even that I was tall but they didn't like me as a person. And well, there isn't anything that I can do about that.

Then there were other reasons, like maybe he was still in love with his ex gf or wife and everytime he looked at me he thought of her. So he figured that it would not be fair to ME, if we continued on in that way, but then I thought about it "who gave him permission to make that choice for me?" What if I wanted to stay in a relationship like that. What if I was happy in something like that?
(Of course I was not, but you know...)



But then I thought "lets look on the positive side" (for once lol)
Maybe they did like me. Maybe they did want to be in a long term relationship with me, but they had it in their mind that I was "perfect" and somehow let their thoughts fall into "what can I offer her? How can she want me when I am just average? ect"

I don't think that men are afraid to Love, but I do think that they are afraid to lose.
So maybe in some situations, its not that they didn't want to love and care about my life, but they were afraid to love and care too much about me for fear that I would disappear. Not realizing that it was never me who wanted to disappear, but their lack of honesty spoken from their heart that pushed me away.

I find it now that I have more respect for a man that is honest with me about how he feels from the beginning. I already experienced upfront, face to face rejection back in the day (hahah) so I know what rejection feels like. Rejection no matter when or how it is dished out still hurts, but the more rejection you take the less pain you feel. And over time, you just learn to accept that "hey, you don't want to be my bf that's cool, thanks for letting me know. So I don't have to waste my time on you(loser, well maybe they aren't a loser, but of course just to make things fit better you have to say it haha)!



If you find a good person, there are no guarantees in life that they will always stay with you. You have to be aware of that. So all you can do is enjoy them while they are in your life, love them as much as possible and let Life (God, The Universe etc) do Its thing.