There are various levels of "missing someone" just as there are with anything else. You might not even know a person that long, but if they brought any joy to your life at all there will be a moment or two where you just miss them.
You can't control this feeling.
You can't deny it either.
You just have to let it happen. Then you just have to let it pass.
We never know which direction life will take us in. We can tell GOD (The Universe...etc) that we don't want anything in our life to change, that we want to stay in whatever moment we are in forever and he can only tells us that he understands.
There are so many moments that I wish I could relive and most of them were within these last 5 months. I know its not the end of the world. I know that I will go to sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow and continue on with the rest of my day. But I also know that my heart will yearn for those moments back. That every time I close my eyes I will replay the awkward moments, the laughs and all the hugs over in my mind.
I say it everyday, "Its not fair."
Its not fair that I love and then I lose...
But at least I know that I'm capable of loving, and strong enough to carry on when I lose.
And from there it will be all right. Yeah. I'm going to be, just fine.
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