Changing Around You

I use to be the one to accuse other people of changing, of not being "themselves" around me. But when I took a step back I came to the conclusion that I really didn't know if the way they were acting was apart of their real "self" or not because I didn't know them.

I also took a look at myself and I realized that I change around certain people. There are some people who I just naturally am quiet around. They make me feel "shy" (Which is something that I haven't felt in awhile, ever since stepping into this "new body"). Then there are other people who I want to "mother." Its not that they need this guidance or protection, but that's just how I FEEL, when I'm around them. But, then there are other people who I step into "aggressive mode" for, not because I don't like them but maybe because the level of conversation that they are providing requires me to be on that level. I can only get into the "thinking mode" (the realistic mode) when I am aggressive(I get a lot more accomplished when I'm like that). 

I'm still trying to figure out a way to balance all these sides. I guess to some, they would say that I'm being "fake." I can understand that. But, if they think about it, its not "fake" its that I don't know which part of me I need to be around them. 


Its almost like when you speak to people. Some people are very sensitive, so if you talk to them in a firm tone they will take offense and their feelings will get hurt. Then there are other people who only want you to be "real with them" (respectfully honest, don't hold back, don't bite your tongue. (that's me) and when you fail to do that (as in beat around the bush) they may think that you are not taking them seriously and wasting their time. They get annoyed by this.


Each person you meet is different. The fun thing about life is that you have plenty of time to get to know a person, if you really want to.