Practical Shoes

I'm more realistic than I was at the beginning of the summer. I no longer see things as "cute" and "sweet" all the time. I no longer live in a world where everything is magical and glittery, although there are many times when I wish that I could stay in a world like that when life got to be too much.


But, I realized that life is only too much when I make things complicated by promising too much. By trying to save the world when I don't have the proper "powers." To do so. I have to take care of myself. Because no one else will.


Once someone told me that I needed more "practical shoes." At the time I knew that they were talking about my high heels. I enjoy wearing high heels because I like to be tall. I make it very clear to everyone who meets me that high heels are my thing. Many ask me "why do you wear high heels when you are already tall?" And I use to give bullshit answers like "they make me feel sexy" (which they do, but that's not the real reason). I like wearing heels because people respond to me differently when I do. It seems that people take me more seriously when I have them on. That's why I wear them to work even when they hurt my feet and even when I know that I could slip in them at anytime. When I wear flats people don't notice me as much, unless I have some kind of creative hairstyle or my makeup is done in a "flawless" manner.


But in order to get anywhere in this world people have to take you seriously. So you have to play the serious part. Because most people in this world only care about money. To them money is serious. 


Yet, I knew that when they said that I need more "practical shoes" that somehow to mean it would mean more than they really intended it to. And well I was able to connect it. I think essentially they were saying that I needed to be more realistic. To open my eyes. To accept reality. They didn't like that I was so "nice." So caring. So kind. So motherly. And now that I am more realistic than before I can safely say that 

YOU NEED PEOPLE WHO ARE "MOTHERLY". 

WHO CARE. 

WHO ARE KIND. 

Because if you didn't have people like me, this world would be freezing in hell a lot more than it is now. And no, I'm not trying to save the world by any means. My eyes are open enough to know that, I alone can not change that by myself. But I do know that I don't have to wear "practical shoes" to inspire people to feel, to care, to wake up and notice that the human connection is more important than anything on this planet. And that love is possible and lasting only if people choose to accept it.