One Step To Better: Attention, Music: The Stage

On February 21 2012 I had an audition. I have not auditioned for anything since Bloom. I owe a lot of my confidence to the director and the production in general. It was my first time being on stage and having a lead part in a musical. It was my first time being in a musical at all. I had a blast. And the memory and the experience will always stay with me. I made a lot of good friends through that opportunity. I also learned a lot about myself. It was a lot of work. No doubt. But if I had the chance to do it all over again I would. Every time. 

Music & I

I auditioned for a local acapella group. They are really great. They have tight harmonies. They blend well with one another. In general they sound and look amazing together. It was really an honor to get the chance to sing with them. It was so nice to sing again to let my voice ring out. To finally be heard. I have a very powerful voice this is true. But right now my voice is homeless, because it doesn't have a place to sing at on a regular basis. So that is my other goal. Now that I have found a job. I need to find a place where I can sing. A place where my voice will not only fit, but have the opportunity to grow. A place where I will be able to learn as well as share what I have learned. 

I honestly was rather nervous. They had just performed for me and then they asked me to sing. It is always different when you get to sing with people who are either on your level have more experience than you. In the previous chorus that I was in. I got bored really quickly with the material that we were learning because most of the stuff that we went over I already knew by heart. There wasn't really any room for me to grow. So I had time and plenty of opportunity for me to "showoff." But in that situation, I was the baby. I quickly learned that there are some things that I need to brush up on. For example, I'm good at hearing harmonies within music but if you ask me to find the middle note of a major chord after it being played once, then well that would be rather difficult for me to do. My ear is naturally trained to hear high notes, because I'm soprano. But, a good musician can sing at the highest and their lowest range and even other parts if needed without any major help. That is the place where I want to get to .


I have it set in my heart to audition or the North Carolina Opera Company. That is my dream. I enjoy being apart of a chorus. But I honestly feel that my voice is made to stand out. That I was created to lead. I don't want to be the lead or a "star" for the fame. I want to give my voice a chance to be admired. I know that I have talent. I know that I have a good voice. Now if only I could find the courage and confidence and the right people to work with in order to make my dream come true. I know that I can't sit and just expect everything to fall in my lap. There will be some hard work, but I'm more than ready to work for my moment in the sun. 

*First Day Of Work*

It was rather busy on my first day of work, but only because there was a party of about 60 people or more. I really feel comfortable working at this place. The only thing that I'm having trouble with is keeping a smile on my face. The strange thing was that at the job I worked at for a brief moment over the summer I SMILED too much and I was "TOO NICE." I really hope that I get to stay here for as long as possible, because job hunting sucks and its tiring and frustrating. Anyway, the servers that I had a chance to meet were really sweet. They kept me smiling and laughing the whole time. I really enjoyed their company. The other hostesses were very helpful. They made sure to break everything down for me. It really isn't a difficult job. Its just that I just have to "jump" in there and take care of business. But before I can do that I need to have the proper tools, so to speak. 

I do miss my old job back at school. It didn't pay very well. But I was happy to be there because I loved the people that I worked with. They were wonderful. They kept me smiling. They allowed me to be the nurturer when it was called for and then they allowed me to be the "diva" when it was time to be on my stage. But life goes on...

I have to admit that It takes me awhile to handle to change. Especially when I am content and or comfortable in a situation. I met a lot of great people there. I am still friends with many of them. I had so much fun. I grew so much while I was there. When I think about how much that place has changed, it is quite amazing. But I wish my babies there only the best. They know who they are and they know that I love them very much. They were apart of my learning experience. They helped me to become the young woman I am today. I will always be thankful that I had a chance to have them in my life.