Changes, Making Moves, Blessings

I haven't had much time to write. I, honestly have been so busy getting my life in order. If I'm not at work (yes, I finally got that new job that I was praying for!) then I'm at rehearsal with the band or writing music, modeling or studying my lines for the musical that I'm in. 

God has opened doors big time for me and I'm truly grateful and thankful. I want to thank all the people that were in my corner and who are still there. I'm not completely out of the woods just yet. I still have more preparing to do. 

Sometimes right before we are about to give up, and throw in the towel God is like: "wait, before you do that, let me show you what I can do." 

How did I get my new job? The job that I really wanted? By being diligent in prayer, having a bold faith and being consistent in putting my resume out there. I did not even have to have a formal interview. She, my supervisor, told me that as soon as she heard that I needed a job she hired me right on the spot!

No trial period. No run around. The job was already  mine as soon as she heard I needed one. 

If that isn't Gods' favor then I don't know what it is!!!!!! 

See, I finally got tired of being tired.
I finally got tired of watching other people receive their blessings and wondering where mine was. Sometimes our blessings don't come to us because there is someone or something stand in the way and or we haven't made up our minds that we are ready to receive them yet. 

SO, I finally made up my mind that I want and will have better for myself. 

I am determined to live a peaceful and financially stable life. 

I am determined to be a successful supermodel, songstress, business woman, wife and mother (in the future lol). I am determined to have the life that I want and nothing and no one will stop me nor stand in my way. 

The LoneWolf Leader: Everybody Moving BUT You (Part 1)

I believe that everyone goes through a period where they just hate their life. 

Where nothing goes right and no matter how hard you try, to fix, glue, stitch, nail... something back together, IT JUST WON'T STAY FIXED.

 I have been absent from the modeling scene in NC because I have been organizing a new move, planning shoots, working (my butt off for nothing it seemed) and being a listening ear to everyone, but MYSELF... so excuse me if I take time out to take care of myself, because if I don't: WHO WILL? 

I knew I was different, long before I looked into the mirrors in my life. I spent countless hours trying to figure out why I didn't "fit in" and why I could never get my voice heard and taken seriously.

Then I started thinking... "Why, am I watching other people receive upgrades, awards and accomplishing their goals while I'm sitting on the sidelines? Why am I watching everyone enjoy life and be free to make their own choices, while I'm "listening and learning and training?" Why is it such a problem for me to want to experience life, the glamorous side, the humble side (enough of that please to be honest, because I'm MORE THAN READY for a few upgrades in a few areas of my life!) the peaceful or the "bad?"

I do not want to be limited to any opportunities or doors for creativity. I want to explore as far as my mind will allow me to go. But, how can you do that, when every time you get an opportunity something stands in your way? Or every time someone wants to work with you, the message gets to you to late? Tired of the excuses. Tired of the "Wait" and "Be Patient" NO! I'm not waiting anymore. It is long overdue for me to receive what was "stolen" from me anyway. I'm not going to back down. I'm not doing to give up, because I know that faith plus good works move mountains.