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Showing posts with label travelling. Show all posts
Showing posts with label travelling. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

The New Chapter: You Are My Adventure

This is a new chapter in my life. It is filled with adventure, sarcasm and of course being absolutely gorgeous. I am in LOVE. Yes! I finally found my prince and he is amazing. He encourages me to be my very best. He supports my dreams to model, sing and travel all over the world. I must say that it is nice to have the support. I won't rehash the last several months of my journey because it isn't relevant to all the amazing and wonderful things happening in my life right now. 

 But, I will say this, I thank God for all the bad moments in life. I thank God for still staying by my side when I wanted to give up. I thank God for sending people to be by my side during the unexpected event. I thank God for still loving me and still sending people to love me even when I was not at my best. I do believe in true Love, because God sent a someone who shows me what it looks like everyday. 

I use to dream that my prince charming would fly into my window on a white horse with diamonds and sweep me off my feet! Oh! how! wonderful, right? yack! hahaha But, I don't have to dream anymore because every day I see my prince. He reminds me that love still exists and that love can happen for me too. 

 



 I am blessed. Even through the storms.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Start All Over: A Brand New Life For Me

I hate NC. I'm so ready to move away from here. 

I'm ready to have a new life. I'm ready to erase this life and start completely over with a new set of cards. 

At a young age, I knew that once my mother passed away that my life was going to be hard. That I was going to get all the messed up cards. 

I'm not really sure what God wants me to do with my life at this point. I feel like I have done everything I could possible do to get my foot in the door to success, but each time I think I'm about to go forward another door slams in my face. Another rejection. Another no!

People don't understand that attached to this door slamming is one of the biggest factors. I don't have a strong support team. I thought I could build one quickly, but as soon as I started getting serious about my walk with Christ most of the people who supported my vision disappeared. But such is the life of a lone wolf... I guess.

I had a nervous break down today, because I drove all the way around town to get to an interview an hour early in the hot ass sun, only to have the owner interview me then tell me that I need training when I have been in hostessing for five years or more. 

He didn't care that my car is fucked up and that I can't fix it. He didn't care that I used my last bit of case to get to that interview. He didn't care that my tires were bad and my car was basically falling a part. All he wanted me to do was do what he said or else I would not have the job. 

Raleigh has nothing for me. I need to move somewhere else. I need to go somewhere, where I can start all over. Be someone completely new. Where I can be and feel appreciated. 

The other part is that not having parents plays a big role too. 
I'm the only grandchild that doesn't have any parent to just help me. I keep asking for help and people look at me like I'm crazy. Like it is strange for me to even think about asking...

I don't know why my life is like this... I'm so tempted to say fuck it all. But I can't because everything that I do is connected to God. My heart beat is connected to God. I know too much about God and what God expects to turn around or to turn my back or to walk away from his truth, peace and unconditional love. 

I never thought that having a walk with Christ would be glamorous but I didn't think it would be like this. All I want to do is get out of this hole. I want to get into a two bedroom house with two bathrooms. I want a new car, mustang and I want a job. That's all. I'm not asking for anything crazy or too hard. People receive things everyday but then when it comes to me. I always get the short end of the stick. 

No one ever pays attention to the poor old wise woman, until they hit their head and get their head busted open. 

No one cares about quality, until they get tired of listening to that crap they call music nowadays. That noise with a beat to it. 

I'm so sick of this life. I want a new one. 

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Young Adults in the workforce (Part 1): Frustrations in even finding Basic Work

I never had so much trouble trying to find a job in my life.
I know that these are tough economic times but maybe they would not be if people who had plenty enough were not so greedy. But that is another story.

I found this article on craigslist and I wanted to share it because it somewhat sums up the frustrations of trying to find a job.

 
Myself and many other young adults, broke our backs and necks to attend college because it was slammed down our throats that in order to live a comfortable life we needed a degree. So we worked hard to get one. But what did we get from it?
 
 
What I'm finding now is that even though I have a degree that most places are reluctant to hire me because I don't have enough experience (they say). But it does not take a rocket scientist to follow directions on a piece of paper and or on a HD LG screen. It just takes a person to know how to read and to comprehend what they are reading. Those are basic skills.
 
 
Most of the experience that I have is with modeling, working with children, administrative/clerical work, hosting and singing.
 
Yet, if I were to put all the experience that I have my resume would be over 5 pages long then because It is not set in perfect alignment with the rules of the "corporate" world then it gets tossed.
 
Perfect margins!
 
Double space!
 
No exotic fonts!
 
 
It has to follow the guidelines or it won't even be considered.
 
 
That's another limitation right there.
 
Why? because how can you see my full array of potential if it is not written in front of you, thus causing the employer to assume that I don't have any experiences in the field that the job is in, when I actually do.
 
Then even when I search for basic hosting jobs, I'm finding that they are asking for the person to do a lot more than requires of a basic host job, but they don't want to pay.
 
Not only do some places want you to seat the people but they want you to
Clean the windows/bathrooms/take out the trash
Help servers bring out their food
Sometimes take orders for the server
Run additional errands (not written in the job description)
Have a degree/be attending school
(Yep, just to stand at the front of the door and greet people with a smile some places require you to have some kind of degree)
 
Yet, I have been working long enough to know that there are always make exceptions to the standard rules.
 
That's why it is not so much about what you know in general (general knowledge etc), it is about who you know and what you KNOW about them.
 
Nowadays if you want to make an honest living by let's say working in McDonalds, you have to jump with hoops, walk on hot coals, swim with sharks, sit on an ant hill and all kinds of crazy things just to get minimum wage, which really translate too enough money to keep your lights on and the hot water running.
 
It is very sad. I have never seen it this bad before. A few years ago I could come home from college and just hop on craigslist and have about several interviews lined up back to back in one day. Now, I'm lucky if I get even one.
 
Then I have seen where they hire people who don't even want to work, don't have any of the credentials or qualities that the job description asked for but because he/she knew someone that knew someone well boom they got the job.
 
So the question is, what is the point in going to college at all? And what is the point of trying to keep yourself as role model citizen. What is the point in going for all the prestigious jobs just to keep up with the "jones" and or to keep a good name when in reality if you were to just meet any stranger who had money and a need for some assistance, you could get a job that quick???
 
Going through all the trouble to polish and primp and watch what we say and do good and volunteer and have the perfect resume etc And in the end none of that matters that much because it really is all about who you know.